Like we all seem to experience when we try to bite off more than we can chew, last night was a very frustrating point for me. Are you ready for my confession? Here we go: I try to do it all and get frustrated when it doesn’t work.
At the start of this new year, I hoped to be organized, keep my apartment tidy, take time to exercise consistently and stay current so piles of stuff didn’t form around my place. I work out of my home and therefore time I spend working versus chores can become very blurry. At this moment, I have a couple loads of laundry on my bed that has not been folded and a sink full of dishes. You remember the tornado that I mentioned after the holidays…I don’t think I have ever recovered the wreckage. Yesterday I wanted to spend the day stopping this pattern; however, all my efforts yesterday were thwarted. I am a clean and organized person! I am, I promise. So what in the world has been going on here? I feel like I have completely crashed and burned with my personal goals!
It amazes me how high I aim sometimes. While this is not a bad thing, having such high expectations for myself can reach a counter-productive point. Last night I reached that point. I felt defeated. For most photographers, January through March are relatively slow months. However, I have been working very hard the last couple weeks to tighten up my branding, design a new logo, and to release a new image of my business. While my existing logo is wonderful, it doesn’t seem to appeal to the refined look that will take me in the direction that I am heading and I am ready to take it to the next level. These changes are very exciting and are a better reflection of me, my photography, and what you can expect from my work. This morning, in this moment, I am okay with my mess. I made choices to prioritize staying in touch with my clients, helping friends, being a supportive girlfriend, sister, and daughter. That wins! Letting go of my lofty organization goals at home is a sacrifice I am willing to make over being a friend and loving the people around me. Today, in this new day, I still have a MILLION things on my To Do list that will not get done, but I still hope beyond hope to reach high and slay dragons.
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